just let me be sad

Well the dreaded Monday has arrived and the whirlwind of Christmas Eve and Christmas Day are now behind us. I say whirlwind, only because that is what the weather decided to do...blowing snow for nearly 3 days. We were able to spend a family filled, fun day with the Seim crew on Christmas Eve and the traditional evening at Grandma Bonnie's. Jayda whipped through her gifts and FINALLY got her coveted "Swimmer puppy." And yesterday we finally got the batteries that will make it work! Who puts triple A batteries in toys anyway?? Paisley did pretty well also and handled all the strange faces for the most part. She didn't get much sleep in, must have been anxious for Santa!

Unfortunately the weather decided it would change our plans and made it impossible for us to travel to Rapid/Hermosa. I tried not to be a baby about the whole thing and make the best of it. But I just couldn't keep it all together without being overcome by sadness. Even with all I have to be thankful for, Christmas just isn't the same without family. It was nice to have a low key day of doing nothing and watch Jayda play with her new toys. She was probably the least phased by the change of plans, although she did say a few times she wanted to see Wyatt, Sydney, Cooper and everyone else. We watched a lot of movies and ate yucky, non Christmas foods. Played a few card games and did a lot of sleeping! My body was probably thankful for a few days of rest, but my spirit had other ideas in mind. The most frustrating part wasn't the snow, the wind or the road conditions, but the lack of understanding I recieved. It's like sometimes people don't even try to put themselves in your shoes and TRY to understand how disappointing it might be for you. They instead get angry at you for being sad. What is so wrong with feeling emotion? It was uncontrollable and I just wanted a moment to deal with the sadness I was feeling, before I had to move on to getting on with the day. Yes, I understand it was too dangerous to travel, YES, I understand the livestock needs to be taken care of, YES I GET IT. Getting IT, doesn't make it any easier though and doesn't take away the way a person feels.

Anyhow, we did get to spend a very short half of a day in Rapid on Sunday and managed to see Mark before he flew back to Colorado. We got to eat my mom's peanut brittle and the world's best toffee. I suppose someday I should learn how to make it, but for now I'm good with counting on her to provide it for us! If I could get her to make pickles again, I'd have no complaints. We left after supper, did the lovely Walmart dash and were back on the road for home. Thankfully the roads were as clear as could be, and no deer were sacrificed. I was able to deliver the family calendar and my babies got to see the rest of their family, if only just for a few hours.